The first day of the new semester. I wonder how I'm going to fare. It's hard to believe but I'm actually in my fourth semester now. Part of me doesn't want to accept the fact that the new semester had begun, though another is pushing me into the fire - Telling me to just get on the road.

Anyway, as usual, here's my list of subjects.


ADV241 ADVERTISING
BRO231 BROADCASTING
ECO101 PRINCIPLES OF ECONOMICS
LIB202 ISSUES IN MODERN MALAYSIA
PUB251 PUBLISHING AND MEDIA DESIGN
PUB252 PUBLICATION PRODUCTION


The only subjects which look interesting to me is Advertising, Issues in Modern Malaysia and Publishing and Media Design. I've a certain interest for Economics, but it doesn't run deep. The only upside to this semester onwards is that I no longer need to take curriculum haha. Anyway, for those of you awaiting my photos, relax. I'm not in the photographic mood just yet.

I now just wonder, with this big changes - How long will be able to cope?

Something which I would usually traditionally do at the start of every year. It's good to reflect.


What did you do in 2009 which you've never done before
Took up one of life's biggest risks: matters of the heart.

Did you keep your New Year's resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I didn't have any resolutions set for 2009 since I've decided to take it as it comes. Same goes for this year. Que Sera Sera.

Did anyone close to you gave birth?
Nope.

Did anyone close to you die?
No one that I was close to.

What countries did you visit?
Singapore.

What would you like to have in 2010 which you lacked in 2009?
Stronger emotional grounds. Higher ego (don't ask).

What date in 2009 will remain etched in your memory, and why?
16.02.2009.

What was your biggest achievement of the year?
My Semester 3 assignments and getting into Semi-Finals for VC Cup 2009.

What was your biggest failure?
Falling into the trap of insecurity.

Did you suffer illness or injury?
Many times, yes.

What was the best thing you bought?
A Canon EOS 30D for RM1.7k. Worth every penny and it's my dream dSLR.

Whose behavior merited celebration?
My assignments mates, college level mates and my M.D. debate members.

Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
A few people. Live and let go, please.

Where did most of your money go?
Malacca and KL outings. As well as assignment costs. Food too.

What did you really, really, really get excited about?
Going to Arau Open Debate 2009. It was the best!

What song will remind you of 2008?
"Lucky" Jason Mraz & Colbie Caillat

Compared to last year, are you:
a) happier or sadder?
b) thinner of fatter
c) richer or poorer?
Happier; the same; poorer.

What do you wish you've done more of?
Everything.

What do you wish you've done less of?
Everything as well.

How did you spend Christmas?
Christmas dinner and staying at home.

Did you fall in love in 2009?
:)

What was your favorite TV program?
House.

Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
Nope. Hope to never will have to.

What was the best book you've read?
Kite Runner by Khaled Hosseini.

What was your greatest musical discovery?
Across the Universe and John Mayer.

What did you want and get?
a dSLR.

What did you want and not get?
A stable emotional ground. It was a roller coaster. But I loved it anyway :)

What was your favorite film this year?
Watchmen.

What did you do on your birthday and how old were you?
Mum launched her debut cookbook so I helped out. I was 19.

What was the one thing that made your year immeasurable more satisfying?
Tioman Island and what followed on 16.02.2009.

How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2009?
A bit more stylish thanks to Zatil, Amy and myself.

What kept you sane?
I have no idea, sometimes - I think I'm already insane.

What celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Robert Downey Jr.

What political issue stirred you the most?
Our new PM. Something big happening in this country, of course it wouldn't miss my eyes.

Who did you miss?
I won't answer this, but you know who you are.

Who was the new best person you met?
Debaters and my new lecturers.

Tell us a valuable lesson you learnt in 2009:
Be stronger. Think quick. Push your best up front.

I sometimes wonder if it's wrong for me to complain so much. Then again I've never really complained to anyone, just that I try to rant it out on my blog with my filters. Gosh, this feels so frustrating. Does anyone have a hammer to knock on my head?

There are times in life where we fall to a period where we may feel like what we have in life isn't enough. We just want more. Did I just hear someone say mid-life crisis? Hello, I'm not even that old yet. Maybe because things are feeling pretty stagnant right now and I need some bit of excitement and chaos thrown in the mix.

I want something I can't get - Long story short.

It's interesting to note however, that when I get busy with assignments and whatnot, halfway through the stress, all I want is just a reassuring hand and embrace, telling me to go forward and finish the damn job. I will complain, and sometimes I will say what's right, but it won't match my heart because in the end - I want what's right, not what's easy.

Would you choose water over wine?

Perhaps sometimes, I just want someone to justify my words and tell me - Listen to your conscience and sense of justice, not your heart. Yes indeed. What a way to start a new year huh?

Did you guys hear? UiTM has a new Vice Chancellor now. VC Abu Shah has been replaced by VC Sahol Hamid who will serve for two years.

I wonder if this will bring about any change to UiTM?

It's cold. Freezing cold. I pull the bedsheets closer around me and curl up. I inch slightly more towards the edge of the bed. Where am I? I open my eyes and see grey. Right. How could I forget?

I'm back here in UiTM Malacca. With might and will, I pulled myself to sit up and pulled a deep breath it. A new semester is starting; it's time to face it. Funny how I don't seem to be looking forward to it.

I'm already back here in Lendu. Now what?

So likewise, to celebrate the event, there are those billions of sleepless all around the World eagerly counting down to when the clock strikes midnight and in a single cosmic blow: Happy New Year. I don't celebrate New Year's with much jubilation as my friends would hope of me, but it's enough by me to by under the stars in solitude or in the company of loved ones rewinding the whole year back.

One thing I've learnt this year is the lesson of change. What lesson have you guys learnt this year? I hold no resolutions for 2010 as I have been doing for previous years, so yeah, Que Sera Sera.